Current thoughts

The year of the ox is finally coming to an end, and soon the year of the tiger will descend. At the moment my mood is drastically whimsical. One moment I am hard core scientist working night and day, and the next I am dreaming about the possibilities of meeting the guy of my dreams, and then poof! I am diligent daughter catering to the demands of her parents.

Who am I? Where am I going? What am I doing? Do I have what it takes to compete with other people in what I want to do? How much do I want it? So far in my life, I realize most of my accomplishments came not because I actively seek them out, but they were rather situations in which I was forced to apply myself and there were not any opportunities for me to turn back.

I think I've been way too busy lately, so busy and tired to the point where the patient and cool collective exterior that I pride myself of having is starting to have cracks and the whiney and easily irritable me is attempting to seize every single moment of opportunity to come out. So many things to do, yet not enough time to do it. Some issues that are out of my reach and some issues that are just plain unattainable by me.

Suppose I just need time to myself in where I can just do the things that I want to do and not worry about the responsibilities. Sigh, sometimes in life, even these simple pleasures are hard to come by.

Pre Chinese New Year resolution - be more organized, kiss a guy, and jump into work 110%.

Sometimes

In a span of 24 hours I have been on an emotionally roller coaster ride that is one minute uplifting, the next gut wrenching and then ending with my heart cracking a little.

Such is life. Never discriminating against the good nor the bad whilst making sure that there is a little bit of both sprinkled all around. Though I do not have the power to make all things bad, good, it definitely does not negate the fact and the powerful urge that I have in which I WANT to.

To hear bad news from people that I absolute adore and to read a story that would absolutely break my heart if I was there in person just simply makes me want to cry for them. I want to shed their tears for them so badly, to embrace them and lessen their burden such so they don't have to carry it alone.

But all I can do now is just pray, and hope that their pain will lessen soon and that tomorrow will be a brighter day. I mean, didn't someone say that the only good thing about looking towards the future is that it comes a day at a time.

Adventures: Part II

People were not kidding when they say that Rio is a city that seduces. Well at least I have been properly seduced after only a four day stay in the city. The funny thing is that during my four day stay, I did nothing of what a tourist would normally do. Visiting the Sugar Loaf, making the trek to the Christ, and celebrating New Years on Copacabana beach were simply lists, and lists they stayed.

I met and stayed with friends, and simply enjoyed their company and what normal city life had to offer in Rio. Partly why our itinerary had to change from tourist mode into Carioca mode was due to the heavy slate of rain that was bombarding the city during the time we were there. Funnily enough, the heavy rain was stopped by a cobra witch and the city rejoiced by celebrating New Years' in her name and let loose an onslaught of fireworks. Good times.

New Years' eve was full of laughter, food, champagne, and in the company of the most awesome people one can ever ask for. I pray that our respective new year will pan out to be greater than the last and that all our dreams and wishes come true to our benefits.

To 2010!