Currently listening to "Everything" by Michael Bublé
I'm so ridiculously happy for no particular reason it is scary, but oh so much fun.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
I Will Come Through
Currently listening to "I Will Come Through" by Sister Hazel.
Status: Holding on.
Thursday. School is moving waaay too fast for my liking; week 2 already and work is kicking my butt.
Since I had 2 1/2 hours to kill, I decided to go the psych. computer lab to kill some time before I had to sing. Half way there I met M., a bioengineer PhD/masters in something walking across campus. Waved him down, said hi, and got talked into going with him to meet up with some engineers at the customizing metal shop on campus. (I didn't even knew we had one! Apparently one of the guys there use to work for NASA. That will tell me to appreciate the wide variety of darn smart people we have on campus!) All I can say is OMG, M. truely lives up to the notorious reputation he has within the lab; there are some serious people skills that he has to learn whilst dealing with others. The workers at the shop were completely annoyed at him; hopefully the NASA guy understood my apologies and my embarassment in which M. was showcasing in the glace/look I gave him. But other than that, the tools and machines that the university has is absolutely brilliant and awesome. Today I got a peek on collaboration (albeit not the greatest kind), politics in work place, and biology science all in a simple matter of 40 mins. Coolness.
And just for that, I thank M. for his generousity in allowing me to tag along. Albeit his showcasing behaviour did remind me of the doctors in the OB/GYN department who somehow LOVED to show off to their patients the fact that i was an "intern" from America, and since I was shadowing them, they somehow were great and good doctors. But this is another story for another day if anyone is ever interested.
Status: Holding on.
Thursday. School is moving waaay too fast for my liking; week 2 already and work is kicking my butt.
Since I had 2 1/2 hours to kill, I decided to go the psych. computer lab to kill some time before I had to sing. Half way there I met M., a bioengineer PhD/masters in something walking across campus. Waved him down, said hi, and got talked into going with him to meet up with some engineers at the customizing metal shop on campus. (I didn't even knew we had one! Apparently one of the guys there use to work for NASA. That will tell me to appreciate the wide variety of darn smart people we have on campus!) All I can say is OMG, M. truely lives up to the notorious reputation he has within the lab; there are some serious people skills that he has to learn whilst dealing with others. The workers at the shop were completely annoyed at him; hopefully the NASA guy understood my apologies and my embarassment in which M. was showcasing in the glace/look I gave him. But other than that, the tools and machines that the university has is absolutely brilliant and awesome. Today I got a peek on collaboration (albeit not the greatest kind), politics in work place, and biology science all in a simple matter of 40 mins. Coolness.
And just for that, I thank M. for his generousity in allowing me to tag along. Albeit his showcasing behaviour did remind me of the doctors in the OB/GYN department who somehow LOVED to show off to their patients the fact that i was an "intern" from America, and since I was shadowing them, they somehow were great and good doctors. But this is another story for another day if anyone is ever interested.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Case of Mondays
I am actually very impressed with my ability to make it through the day today. Granted that I woke up late, and was about 5 minutes late to my one and only class, I'm proud to say that I survived Monday...albeit not without some minor difficulties.
For some odd reason I've been feeling this subtle yet weird headache today, and some slight pre-period dull aches in the abdominal area. It would totally be reasonable except for the fact I just had my period a week ago. Hum...odd. I wonder if it is the stress catching up to me or the fact that I too way too many healthy vitamins before leaving the house this morning. It was really only 1 omega 3, 2 multivitamins, 2 B vitamins...so not like it was TOO much. Shrug, I patiently await the day that I fully understand what the heck my body is doing in comparison to my daily activities.
Anyways, back to my case of Monday's. Everything was going by at a snail crawling pace that was painful to endure. Work at lab wasn't so bad, if it weren't for the fact that my mentor, L. was doing VP assays and had to do work on ~20 mice. Not only it stunk up the bay for the whole afternoon, but there was poop everywhere! On the lab bench (which is easier to clean up because of the diapers placed) and not to mention, on the floor. I swear it is the mice's' last revenge, or errr whatever they do before they are sacked. Hopefully L. will see the poop and at least wipe some off the floor, or else she will definitely see me scrubbing the floor on Wednesday.
I got some news today that I am not quite sure how to respond to. Apparently H.'s mom refuses to let him stay over a night, and in return he will only be able to come down tomorrow for the day and leave for home at night. Though frustrated at his mom's constantly change of mind (yes....no...wait...maybe...wait...NO) I am grateful that H. will be coming down tomorrow, because I'm just tired, and I am really ready to just fall into his arms and rest there for a little bit. Why is being a full time student with 2 part-time jobs so stressful? Man if college is like this, I can't imagine being in Med school would be like.
Ah... oh well... another worry for another day. g'night all.
For some odd reason I've been feeling this subtle yet weird headache today, and some slight pre-period dull aches in the abdominal area. It would totally be reasonable except for the fact I just had my period a week ago. Hum...odd. I wonder if it is the stress catching up to me or the fact that I too way too many healthy vitamins before leaving the house this morning. It was really only 1 omega 3, 2 multivitamins, 2 B vitamins...so not like it was TOO much. Shrug, I patiently await the day that I fully understand what the heck my body is doing in comparison to my daily activities.
Anyways, back to my case of Monday's. Everything was going by at a snail crawling pace that was painful to endure. Work at lab wasn't so bad, if it weren't for the fact that my mentor, L. was doing VP assays and had to do work on ~20 mice. Not only it stunk up the bay for the whole afternoon, but there was poop everywhere! On the lab bench (which is easier to clean up because of the diapers placed) and not to mention, on the floor. I swear it is the mice's' last revenge, or errr whatever they do before they are sacked. Hopefully L. will see the poop and at least wipe some off the floor, or else she will definitely see me scrubbing the floor on Wednesday.
I got some news today that I am not quite sure how to respond to. Apparently H.'s mom refuses to let him stay over a night, and in return he will only be able to come down tomorrow for the day and leave for home at night. Though frustrated at his mom's constantly change of mind (yes....no...wait...maybe...wait...NO) I am grateful that H. will be coming down tomorrow, because I'm just tired, and I am really ready to just fall into his arms and rest there for a little bit. Why is being a full time student with 2 part-time jobs so stressful? Man if college is like this, I can't imagine being in Med school would be like.
Ah... oh well... another worry for another day. g'night all.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Pur-fect Sunday
Okay, so originally today H. was suppose to come down from Irvine and we get to spend the whole day together...blah blah blah...but like most of the times he said he was coming down, something came up with his family and prevented him from such. Surprisingly, I'm actually okay with him not coming down this Sunday. I'm catching up on laundry, making pudding, reading, and here typing up a new post. However, sadly to say, I don't know how I'm going to schedule my schedule when he decides to come down on Thursday; I guess he'll just have to be by himself on Friday afternoon in the library or something whilst I do work. Blah, oh well I'll just have to remember to tell him tonight.
I love this feeling where I am at ease, and no rushing to get work done, no rushing or frightened that I won't be able to meet a deadline. I feel my confidence coming back! and another YAY for Gabe, since he was kind enough to take my shift such so I didn't have to work today.
I love this feeling where I am at ease, and no rushing to get work done, no rushing or frightened that I won't be able to meet a deadline. I feel my confidence coming back! and another YAY for Gabe, since he was kind enough to take my shift such so I didn't have to work today.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Regrouped...Sorta
So I didn't go to either of my morning classes, but I currently feel damn good for resting, making myself some pumpkin latte and a grilled cheese sandwich with some chips for lunch. Yea, I think I really needed the break. Grrr...If I only didn't burn the toast...the whole freaking apartment smells burnt now...not to mention my hair and clothes.
Now I'm contemplating whether I should go to my afternoon class at all, or simply give myself a break and not go to it until next Tuesday? Well it is music and I guess no one will really miss me. I think I shalln't miss it much either. I'm going to try going to the library tonight and see how much I'll be able to get done and get ahead of the class. Mostly Mol. Bio and structural biology that I need to read up on and catch up. However I do believe I didn't miss much from not going to class yesterday and today.
Another note in my life is that I am absolutely obsessed and hooked onto iTunes and the services that it provides. This is so freaking lovely, if I don't spend my money over there on Lush, I spend money on iTunes getting access to TV shows and music that are fantastically awesome. Well at least with music I'll be able to listen to over and over again. Until that fateful time that switch computers and such. Till then I guess.
Now I'm contemplating whether I should go to my afternoon class at all, or simply give myself a break and not go to it until next Tuesday? Well it is music and I guess no one will really miss me. I think I shalln't miss it much either. I'm going to try going to the library tonight and see how much I'll be able to get done and get ahead of the class. Mostly Mol. Bio and structural biology that I need to read up on and catch up. However I do believe I didn't miss much from not going to class yesterday and today.
Another note in my life is that I am absolutely obsessed and hooked onto iTunes and the services that it provides. This is so freaking lovely, if I don't spend my money over there on Lush, I spend money on iTunes getting access to TV shows and music that are fantastically awesome. Well at least with music I'll be able to listen to over and over again. Until that fateful time that switch computers and such. Till then I guess.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Need to Regroup
I need to regroup. Need to get myself back together before Dylan and I begin to throw a fit. I was constantly trying to reach H. this morning, and when he picked up and told me he couldn't talk, I was near tears. Yea, I am totally stressed to the brink of a break down. I missed class today, and I am again constantly over sleeping. What is up with that? There has to be something wrong with me...either that or my alarm clock. GAH.
I feel fat, and not confident... where did my confidence go?
I feel fat, and not confident... where did my confidence go?
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Ramblings
I don't know why I constantly feel so tired. I know I am definitely getting enough hours of sleep, so then I don't understand why my inner child is so tired and constantly feeling so drained. So far my days aren't too bad, classes are okay since I have been reviewing and previewing the lecture material. Hopefully my school work never gets to the point that it becomes boring.
Library walk is currently flooded with vendors, for as it is vendor's fair... however somehow this year it feels different. Different in the sense that though I want to buy something, I somehow feel ashamed to purchase anything. Kind of like the feel when one day I was realized I was too old to ride the merry-go-round and just wanted to get off as quickly as possible. I guess Dylan and I do have different and unique conversations when we are tired.
It is funny how people unconsciously gravitate towards names that have the hidden meanings that tell a lot about their character. For example, when I just looked up my name, it meant noble and kind. Though I don't proclaim to be either, many people have commented on how I have such qualities. And to think I named myself at the young age of 2! I must of had high hopes for myself at that time...and quite frankly...I'm thinking I'm at least living up to my name. At the same time, Dylan, my inner child...a name that I choose for her back when I was rediscovering the English language, means "child of the sea." Its amazing how I've always had an affinity towards the ocean, and in which, when I'm near or in the ocean that I feel peaceful and at ease. Interesting Indeed.
Library walk is currently flooded with vendors, for as it is vendor's fair... however somehow this year it feels different. Different in the sense that though I want to buy something, I somehow feel ashamed to purchase anything. Kind of like the feel when one day I was realized I was too old to ride the merry-go-round and just wanted to get off as quickly as possible. I guess Dylan and I do have different and unique conversations when we are tired.
It is funny how people unconsciously gravitate towards names that have the hidden meanings that tell a lot about their character. For example, when I just looked up my name, it meant noble and kind. Though I don't proclaim to be either, many people have commented on how I have such qualities. And to think I named myself at the young age of 2! I must of had high hopes for myself at that time...and quite frankly...I'm thinking I'm at least living up to my name. At the same time, Dylan, my inner child...a name that I choose for her back when I was rediscovering the English language, means "child of the sea." Its amazing how I've always had an affinity towards the ocean, and in which, when I'm near or in the ocean that I feel peaceful and at ease. Interesting Indeed.
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