Count Down

6 Hour count down till Final.

Hmmmmmmmmm......For some odd reason the "HMFG OH SHIT SHIT SHIT" light has yet to click on in my brain for this final. I should really be panicking. However I'm calm as a person can be. What is this feeling I'm feeling? Hopefully I won't be doing the clicky light thing tomorrow when I get my final.

Scrambled Eggs

1 final down. 6 lectures and 1 visual art project to go. My brain feels like a pan of scrambled eggs. Funny that.

However fried of the current state of my brain, I'm actually looking forward to this weekend: Brad Paisley's concert, M.'s BBQ graduation party, and Lunch with future roommate M2. And maybe...if I have the time and money...buy Alanis M.'s new CD and spend some time listening to it.

Currently listening to:
"Not as We" - Alanis Morrissette
"The Quest" - Bryn Christopher
"Better in Time" - Leona Lewis

Motivation

Dammit, I need some motivation for me to actually allow me to plow through 2 more chapters of oh so fun filled of Molecular biology, and 6 lectures of actual lecture notes. And then there is the dreaded 8 lectures of inherited Molecular Biology of Human Disease. Sometimes I wonder if choosing a biology degree was actually a mistake. Should of taken International communications instead. Bah! And the fun thing is that I hear it only gets worse from here on. LOVELY.

I swear, sometimes I really feel like a sadist towards myself for choosing this path to travel on.

YAY!

YAY! I have a new roommate! And so far from what I've seen, she is an awesome possum girl <3

It feels right and I hope that this is the beginning of a good relationship to come.

I love my community.

Now if the darn finals would be over soon...either that or I have more time to study. Poohie

Patience

I need to have more patience for things in life.

A couple of things to remember while waiting:

Perfer et obdura; dolor hic tibi proderit olim
"Every relationship that doesn't work out takes you one step closer to the one that will."
"If you're going through hell, keep going."-Winston Churchill

I can do this!!!!! Go Allie! GO! GOOO!

Bubble

So I'm back in the Bubble this weekend to spend some time with the parents, since I won't be seeing them for a couple weeks after this visit. Had an awesome breakfast with Mother at Mimi's cafe--mhmmm fresh grape fruit juice is sooo good!

On our way home, right before we turned into the community, I saw the greatest thing...a big bad white truck with the license plate 'I'M SNGLE' hahahhahaha I couldn't stop laughing. It was so cute! I think the guy who was driving the truck noticed that I saw his license plate because he kept looking back and checking his rear view mirror watching me laugh...so I couldn't help it and mouthed back "me too" whilst smiling back. Hopefully I gave him something to smile about for his day.

Ah the bubble, how thee amuses me.

Growing up

People who are older than me tell me that I'm in a good position and that as long as I do my job as a student, there is nothing to fear about growing up and moving on into the adult world. However, why do I still fear growing up? These are the times when I wish there was someone there to tell me that it all will be okay and though my fears are not unfounded and that they are benign.

As the eldest child in my family, there aren't a lot of people in which I can confide in nor take advice from that truly understood my hesitations and fears. Sure I ask around for assistance, but that doesn't mean that my fears always strike me at the most convenient times and allows me to call people during those times. After all I don't want to become the clingy one that is stuck with her phone.

I guess what I really have to do is sit down, plan and and suck it up. :) Life is full of different chapters and I hope the best has yet to come.

But....I think all I really want is just a hug and someone telling me to suck it up.