Matt Nathanson

After experiencing the full magic and perks of a live concert since June, I have to say I am utterly addicted. Last night, sis and I went to Matt Nathanson's concert at the House of Blues. Oh, what an experience! I think I definitely have a small crush on Matt now if I didn't before.

Too cute, and too awesome. Recommended tracks: Laid, Come on get higher, Still, All we are, and Wedding dress. A night full of angst, sarcasm, comedic relief, and tons and tons of laughter--what more can a girl ask for?

Life

It is interesting how the thoughts of mine are constantly and always triggered by the events surrounding me. Currently in my life, I am bombarded by the news of relatives' and family friend relative's deaths. I guess I am at the age, where the older generation that I have interacted with, have finished their time on earth and are/were ready to move on. I wish I was more apathetic towards these situations, however each incident just provokes more thoughts on life and death...and how people really are....one minute living and breathing, and the next cold and every aspect of their personality gone. And yet the living remain, continue chugging on with the rest of their life, propelling forward the infinite cycle (or should I say recycle?) of life.

This thing called life is such a delicate and interesting topic in which probably would never have a conclusion. For example, if I were honest with myself, I would definitely admit that growing up, being more responsible, and falling in love again is so truly painful and so scary that I don't think I would want to do any of it voluntarily. But yet, like two sides of a coin, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the highs, the freedom, and the feeling of being adored and loved again if I choose to not experience the pain. Why is it that in life, there are so many uncertainties, and it seems that through gains we also suffer losses. Why is it that there are so many detail aspects of life in which we cannot control and keep it positive? Is it truly because without the bad, we would not be able to appreciate the good?

Hmmmm maybe I will just enjoy it for what it is and leave these thoughts for another day, another time.

If it is broken, don't fix it

This post by Dr. Rob is quite inspiring.

How often do we attempt to fix things in which cannot be fixed and in result dig out selves into a hole so deep that we can no longer climb out of ourselves? Sometimes we might just need to stop our selves midst digging and try to remember why we were desperately digging in the first place. I just hope that next time I start to dig again, I'll remember this and be able to step back and reevaluate my notion of digging.

Pumpkin Spice Bread

Coming from an Asian family, one would definitely know that baking anything is usually not on the list of bonding activities. I was introduced to the art of baking the at beginning of my third year of college. Though I have yet to try my hand at baking from scratch alone (I've had done it with help before) I love the therapeutic feel of mixing all the key ingredients, working out the dough and inhaling the hints of the possibilities of what is to come of the final product. What I love even more is when the dough is beginning to rise within the oven and the heavenly aroma begins to permeate the apartment, allowing me to bask in all its warmth and glory. *content sigh*

How can one not love baking? Some how it is just able to make everything almost all right.

Memories, wishes and to look foward in life.

:)

Current Thoughts

My life currently still seems as if it is an extension of my previous post....expecting the unexpected. Things that I had planned out previously and are going down the bucket and things that I did not expect I would do are happening one after the other. Oh dearie.

But this time, I decided, instead of panicking, I will sit tight and see where this roller coaster ride will take me. But as any normal human being would react, sitting through a roller coaster with one's heart up shoved up against one's throat, constricted whilst fear and adrenaline coursed through one's body is definitely no way to live twenty four seven.

Though things in life are going quite in the direction of being extremely interesting lately, I am surprisingly still grateful for what I have in my life. Yes, things could be better, but at the same time i so much rather have this semi peace of mind than to feel the numbness coursing through my veins and the constant weight of the coldness that I and H. had subjected me to in the past.

Expecting the Unexpected

So after coming back from Boston, I was thinking that I would have about three weeks of vacation and then work would begin immediately afterward. But now, having 4 weeks and going of vacation I am starting to expect the unexpected.

Though I have to say, I'm not exactly complaining about the free time. I mean I still have things to do, BUT after working nonstop since January, this vacation right now is bliss. I just wish I had more information on the job that I am suppose to have. I guess I just have to patient, and whilst waiting...read the papers that my to be lab has published. *blech* as interesting as they are.

So I came back to SD yesterday afternoon from the bubble, thinking that I would simply spend my day slow and reading through some papers in the comforts of my own room. But since I'm am suppose to expect the unexpected, I am currently in downtown and sitting in my roommate's school's library....blogging and eventually hoping to get to some papers.

Life is fun.