Seeing Red

Today was a day where everything just pushed me to the brink and I was literally seeing red in front of me. Lost the samples that took a week for me to make at work, came home and roommate was demanding of a couple things that were completely unreasonable, went to fencing and almost died of embarrassment from something I said, and then I saw burrito girl when I went out with A. to vent my heart out. Sometimes I hate smiling when I am dying inside.

It was a fucking shitastic day.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day. G'night world.

So ugly it's cute

Have you ever heard of the expression "So ugly it's cute"? I have, and I didn't really believe in it until now.

What is it? You ask. DUN DUN DUN! It is a baby owl. TOO CUTE!

I wonder if this applies to boys too? hmmm.

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It has been a while since I have posted, and suffice to say there has been way too many things that happened in the past couple of weeks that I don't know even how to begin with if I wanted to talk about it.

But so far, a couple good songs have been keeping my sanity inside my head, and the insanity and ridiculousness of my life at bay: " I run to you", "Then", "Wild at Heart", "Small Town USA", "You Belong With Me", "Stand", and a couple more I'm sure.

Oh, that and I recently returned to fencing thanks to a friend of mine--well more like thanking her for making the first jump back easier. The happiness that I feel despite the sore muscles and in ability to walk is surreal. The happiness is so unreal....it is as if I have just gone out on an really nice first date and coming home all giddy. Too much of good stuff is making me second guess and ask myself "How long will this last?" I definitely don't want this to end.

*sigh*

失落沙洲....

"未來我得到的還會有很多， 但失去的，只有你一個"
但唯能慶幸的是 失去, 只有一次.......

Quote

"Being happy does not mean that everything is perfect. It means you’ve decided to see life beyond the imperfections. Don’t say you’re happy because everything is all right. But be happy because while everything is complicated, you’re still doing fine." -Anon.


I like this quote. Hopefully I'll be able to feel like this soon. :)

Current Thoughts

Yesterday was definitely an experience that I would not easily forget. Through an invitation of a friend, I was clad in a grey tank, and jeans while beads of sweat were slithering down my back and leaning between two wooden planks trying to secure a wire clip that will hold a metal fence up at 9am in the morning on a horse farm. Never in my life had I thought I would ever don on worker's gloves, carry metal poles around, tear down fences, and not to mention put up new fences. I think I can understand a little bit better when people say that they feel more secure and grounded when building their own house or working on their own land. There is a sense of fulfillment and calm that comes with the manual labor--not to mention staring at the fruits of said labor.

I managed to stay awake till 10:30pm last night and then promptly passed out when I allowed myself to sleep. Now I am sitting here in front of the computer trying to remember that faint smell of green grass, trees, and the undeniable scent of horses.

Was it all a dream? Did that really happen? Yes--my whole body soreness tells me so.

Oh so shiny...

After two grueling weeks of work, pesky work relationships, and co-workers pulling me in every possible direction I was ready for a long long break or the opportunity to throw things at them. But luckily for them the weekend was upon us and I didn't have to talk to them for three glorious days.

HUZZAH!

During the past three days, I made gourmet food, I went to the cove and sat there people watching, I drank a Suizerra, and most of all I shopped and painted my nails. THREE DAYS OF BLISS, I tell ya. (Well, there were the usual disturbances...but nothing I can't overcome....er...or at least I'm trying...)

Anyways, I'm gonna go stare at my shiny toes and contemplate what I will be doing with my newly found time and what summer activities I will be participating. Oh so many things to do....so little time.

oh so shiny............

Summer Indulgence

Memorial day is the official announcement that summer is here. To celebrate summer, I made a berry lemonade from fresh berries and lemons. :D