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Strange situations

I think I may have been asked out on a date for lunch tomorrow.

I say may have been because the circumstances that predate this date were not your normal "guy likes girl, guy ask girl out for lunch" scenario. SIGH. I guess I will provide a bit more details as the situation plays out as a whole and see if I can pull off what I need to pull off tomorrow. Suffice to say, I am way too self conscious and a bit worried about matters at hand. Matters including the boy being younger, complicating matters if something does happen and creating gossip for others.

So please wish me luck and that everything will be okay.

:)

A post that I want to remember:

A Valentine's Story

A Happy Reminder

Every time I watch this video, I just can't resist a smile.

I simply just need to remember there are good things out there and I not only I need to keep hope, but also have a more positive outlook on life.

Life continues

Work has been a bit frustrating lately. A big change is coming and yet the simple experiments I need to do are met with annoying obstacles that force me to bend, crawl, and even beg for permission to even proceed. It is almost as if people are testing my limits and whether if I would be able to shoulder and handle the responsibilities given to me at the tender age of 23 going on 24. I have full confidence I am able to handle the obstacles that work is throwing at me, but at the constant rate of problems occurring, I'm not going to lie.... it is getting to me and wearing me down. Where is the effing support man? Oops, I forgot...there is none.

Constantly dealing with people who think they are above others and force others that are "below" them to jump through hoops and over fire just for their amusement or using them for their advantage is just a sadistic sentiment at best I believe.

I was looking back on my last post....and I think I'd have a higher chance of kissing TJ Thyne than I do kissing a boy before the new year. Haha. Delusions, natural by product of stress. WOOt.

SIGH. Hopefully the weekend comes soon and I can simply pass out and munch on cookies. Now don't ask me which one comes first or how I do it...that just requires too many brain cells to operate at the moment.

Current thoughts

The year of the ox is finally coming to an end, and soon the year of the tiger will descend. At the moment my mood is drastically whimsical. One moment I am hard core scientist working night and day, and the next I am dreaming about the possibilities of meeting the guy of my dreams, and then poof! I am diligent daughter catering to the demands of her parents.

Who am I? Where am I going? What am I doing? Do I have what it takes to compete with other people in what I want to do? How much do I want it? So far in my life, I realize most of my accomplishments came not because I actively seek them out, but they were rather situations in which I was forced to apply myself and there were not any opportunities for me to turn back.

I think I've been way too busy lately, so busy and tired to the point where the patient and cool collective exterior that I pride myself of having is starting to have cracks and the whiney and easily irritable me is attempting to seize every single moment of opportunity to come out. So many things to do, yet not enough time to do it. Some issues that are out of my reach and some issues that are just plain unattainable by me.

Suppose I just need time to myself in where I can just do the things that I want to do and not worry about the responsibilities. Sigh, sometimes in life, even these simple pleasures are hard to come by.

Pre Chinese New Year resolution - be more organized, kiss a guy, and jump into work 110%.

Sometimes

In a span of 24 hours I have been on an emotionally roller coaster ride that is one minute uplifting, the next gut wrenching and then ending with my heart cracking a little.

Such is life. Never discriminating against the good nor the bad whilst making sure that there is a little bit of both sprinkled all around. Though I do not have the power to make all things bad, good, it definitely does not negate the fact and the powerful urge that I have in which I WANT to.

To hear bad news from people that I absolute adore and to read a story that would absolutely break my heart if I was there in person just simply makes me want to cry for them. I want to shed their tears for them so badly, to embrace them and lessen their burden such so they don't have to carry it alone.

But all I can do now is just pray, and hope that their pain will lessen soon and that tomorrow will be a brighter day. I mean, didn't someone say that the only good thing about looking towards the future is that it comes a day at a time.