W. doing dishes in the kitchen. I walk in, stared at his butt and decided to make a few comments.
Me: "Damn, look at that fine ass! I'd definitely hit that!" (Proceeds to slap his butt)
W: Silence and then "....I think there is something inherently wrong about me doing dishes and you acting like a douche"
Me: "Well you know me, breaking gender stereotypes and all! I'm gonna own that!" Slaps W's butt again for good measure. PUahahha.
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Friday, October 12, 2012
Sparkle
There was a thunderstorm here last night. Today, everything in view looks so clean and sparkly. It is as if the rain gave the world a giant shower to rinse away the layer of dust that has been slowly accumulating over the past few months. The temperature is moderate; slight breeze, and comfortable enough that one doesn't need a jacket.
These are the moments in which I fall in love with this city all over again...when I fall victim to rutts and firmly believe that the city no longer has anything more to offer me.
I'm currently sitting at Peet's; alone and musing. I've recently had a discovery and insight in regards to W. and my relationship. I don't think the relationship we have is filled with constant heart accelerations accompanied by butterflies in my stomach doing a chaotic cha cha. It often feels more as if a steady stream gently trickling along; a few rough patches here and there, sprinkled with little moments that take my breath away.
However, there are moments in which I wonder if our relationship is what I am looking for. Is there something missing? Is there something more that I should be seeking? Am I suppose to be content and happy so early on in a relationship? I don't think any books I've read or social media that I'm exposed to, mentioned any of this. Is this NORMAL?
Then from another perspective, I just want to smack my head upside down and inside out. Why couldn't and shouldn't love be simple, and steady? A constant? Just because it doesn't have the advertised tons of passion, sex, drama, and bouts of intense longing doesn't make it any less real. This realization is slightly alarming. How is it that something that should be normal isn't, and the outliers portrayed by the media and the society around us is perceived as the norm?
If I am thinking this way in regards of love, what other aspects of life have I been influenced by society and social media? Work? School? Life? Friendship?
Hmmm, I will definitely need to do some more thinking in regards to these matters. Perhaps this will teach me to think outside of the box and no longer be confined to other people's seemingly definite definitions of what things should be.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
As the Heart Is
On the life front:
These past couple months have been a roller coaster of events and emotions. In January, I made up my mind to finally quit my job and move home to study for the GMAT at the end of August. No job, no income, leave my friends and life here in SD, go home and study. Simple no?
Alas, things in life are never easy and never go as planned. Little did I know, March came and brought along a boy (W.) that would steal my heart away and be almost* everything I wished for in a boyfriend.
I knew I was doomed when April, May, and June passed and the more we felt like friends and lovers that have known each other for most of our lives, and yet, just met. Late June, and early July, we went on a 20+hour road trip to visit his friends and family, and came back with a much deeper appreciation for one another.
Crap. Was the only thought going through my head when in mid July, I was watching August fast approaching on the horizon, knowing that I had to make a decision fast and soon about leaving San Diego. From the beginning, my parents haven't really approved of this relationship - why? Because he was of another ethnicity than I was. I saw a side of my parents that I never thought (believed) they had - racist. They admit it and are reluctant to budge. Even the thought of wanting to introduce the boy to the family was met with rejection and disdain. Sigh. Keeping this reaction of my parents in mind, I knew there would be no way I'd be able to move home and continue this relationship**.
After quite a few sleepless nights, I decided to still quit my current job, but stay in San Diego for the time being and study here instead. Yes, I'd be living off of my savings for a few months, but that is a small price to pay for independence and the freedom to see where this relationship would go. And perhaps, in the mean time, find another job that is slightly less demanding and would allow me an opportunity to be able to enjoy life and prepare myself for the next stage of life. I can't stay a lab tech forever!
I gave a month's notice last Friday. My boss was surprisingly supportive and told me that I should go home and think again of my options; she was willing to let me work part time if it came to it. I told her I would meet again with her in a week and give her my answer.
On the running front:
Oh gawds, the last time I ran was when I was visiting W.'s family in early July. Since then due to family drama, tired of running, and the stress of making all these big life decisions I have been completely out of commission on the running front.
I have a half marathon coming up in 12 days, with a time limit of 3 hours. Fudge. I finally dragged my sorry butt out for a 1 miler since I wasn't quite sure how far I'd be able to make - 11:24 was my time. Not too shabby I suppose for a month+ hiatus. Tomorrow, I will be trying for 2 miles. Wish me luck!
On blogging front:
I will definitely start to update more, now that big things have died down a bit I will be gearing up for studying mode - any type of procrastination is welcomed, right? Oh dear.
*He is mostly perfect, however still gotta work on a couple things no? Life is good, but it ain't THAT GOOD. ;)
**I hope in time, they will eventually accept and see him for him, and not his skin color or heritage background if this relationship does progress in the direction that both W. and I want to see it go.
These past couple months have been a roller coaster of events and emotions. In January, I made up my mind to finally quit my job and move home to study for the GMAT at the end of August. No job, no income, leave my friends and life here in SD, go home and study. Simple no?
Alas, things in life are never easy and never go as planned. Little did I know, March came and brought along a boy (W.) that would steal my heart away and be almost* everything I wished for in a boyfriend.
I knew I was doomed when April, May, and June passed and the more we felt like friends and lovers that have known each other for most of our lives, and yet, just met. Late June, and early July, we went on a 20+hour road trip to visit his friends and family, and came back with a much deeper appreciation for one another.
Crap. Was the only thought going through my head when in mid July, I was watching August fast approaching on the horizon, knowing that I had to make a decision fast and soon about leaving San Diego. From the beginning, my parents haven't really approved of this relationship - why? Because he was of another ethnicity than I was. I saw a side of my parents that I never thought (believed) they had - racist. They admit it and are reluctant to budge. Even the thought of wanting to introduce the boy to the family was met with rejection and disdain. Sigh. Keeping this reaction of my parents in mind, I knew there would be no way I'd be able to move home and continue this relationship**.
After quite a few sleepless nights, I decided to still quit my current job, but stay in San Diego for the time being and study here instead. Yes, I'd be living off of my savings for a few months, but that is a small price to pay for independence and the freedom to see where this relationship would go. And perhaps, in the mean time, find another job that is slightly less demanding and would allow me an opportunity to be able to enjoy life and prepare myself for the next stage of life. I can't stay a lab tech forever!
I gave a month's notice last Friday. My boss was surprisingly supportive and told me that I should go home and think again of my options; she was willing to let me work part time if it came to it. I told her I would meet again with her in a week and give her my answer.
On the running front:
Oh gawds, the last time I ran was when I was visiting W.'s family in early July. Since then due to family drama, tired of running, and the stress of making all these big life decisions I have been completely out of commission on the running front.
I have a half marathon coming up in 12 days, with a time limit of 3 hours. Fudge. I finally dragged my sorry butt out for a 1 miler since I wasn't quite sure how far I'd be able to make - 11:24 was my time. Not too shabby I suppose for a month+ hiatus. Tomorrow, I will be trying for 2 miles. Wish me luck!
On blogging front:
I will definitely start to update more, now that big things have died down a bit I will be gearing up for studying mode - any type of procrastination is welcomed, right? Oh dear.
*He is mostly perfect, however still gotta work on a couple things no? Life is good, but it ain't THAT GOOD. ;)
**I hope in time, they will eventually accept and see him for him, and not his skin color or heritage background if this relationship does progress in the direction that both W. and I want to see it go.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Cupid - Daniel Powter
Song of the moment. :)
Running is going strong; I finished my first 10k last week, and will be doing the Warrior Dash later on this week. I also joined a cross fit gym and despite the all sorts of pain, I'm getting stronger, leaner and becoming a much better runner. One day, I'll work up the courage to run that marathon!
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