Fearless

So after working a ten hour day at work today I am completely pooped. It is very strange how when one is tired, one can only think of all things strange. So today, the topic on mind is currently how all of a sudden I can only imagine conversations between boy M and I, in which he and I talk about not wanting our hearts broken again and how that we hope that we won't break each others heart. There were no promises on either side, but the fear of getting hurt was slowly seared into my brain. Quite odd. Either I am way too tired to even think straight anymore, or it is simply the fact that M and I did connect on a weird mental level. Who knows, I don't know what to think, or am I even suppose to think at all? Strange..ain't it? Especially when I've only known M for 2 freaking days. HAHHAHAHAHAHAH yea I'm not only dillusional, but also insane.

It is getting late and I have to wake up at 5, 6 am and make it to work before 7am for there are a series of experiments that we are needing to run tomorrow. I'm exhausted but fulfilled mentally I think. I'm doing something that makes me feel useful and good about myself--as if I am contributing something. OH! and they gave me my own desk yesterday! MY OWN DESK! I have a cubbie! yay! I'm excited and I feel so important sitting there. ;P And yes, I am rambling.

On another note, I haven't been talking to a close friend in a while, I don't know what she is up to these days and I feel like she is avoiding me; but like Ang. said I don't want to "place my hot face on her cold ass". Sighness. But I guess even though I am not doing well socially...academically and work wise I am going somewhere. :)

I watched Bones tonight, and almost wanted to kiss Booth on the spot....him and Bones are just too cute. I guess roomie is right...men are much better tall, dark, and handsome.

Oh and I'm listening to Taylor Swift's "Fearless" I am such a sucker for romantic ballads. So innocent, so naive yet oh so good and heart wrentching.

Okay...I think I need to go to bed now. G'night