Sunday, May 30, 2010

Glitter in the Air

While doing the dishes today, I was seduced by Glitter in the air. It was not the first time I have encountered this song-the first time was during the Grammy performance-yet somehow this second go around was able to capture my attention and entrance.

Two years ago, I was frustrated. Frustrated at what to do with my life and frustrated with my relationship with my family. Two years later from then, I don't feel anymore different. It seems as times goes on, I become wiser (I'd like to think that), but the problems that come with the territories also evolve. Such is life I suppose. Funny thing is that whilst I feel frustrated with the majority of my life, I am also at the same time very content in all the changes I made so far. Make sense? Talk about a feeling of contradiction. One step at a time; one can only ask that in all fairness.

Today I finally finished unpacking. Everything is in its' new place and neatly stored away. There are no words to describe the amount of relief that floods me that I am finally have a place to call home--my own.

Also, this secret today made me smile. It is nice to know that someone else out there feels the same way I do.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Wrong baby Wrong

"Is it better than the one you tried at Pizza Port?" he asks.

Caught off guard, I sputtered in a whisper "No, but it is much creamier."

"What?" He leaned in closer

"No, but this one is much creamier." I replied in a louder voice.

My cheeks start to flare, but whether due to the stout that I ingested on an empty stomach a couple minutes before or from embarrassment of him asking me of a private moment of ours in front of his new date, I would never know.

Him bringing the girl to our social gathering nailed the final nail on the coffin of anything that would ever hint to happen. And surprisingly, it hurt a bit on my behalf.

Unbeknownst to me, myself and I, I fell a teeny tiny bit in love (or crush, however you want to see it as) in the past month but in the past week or so, every possibility of that that crush was ripped into shreds. Ah, when will I ever learn?

Not knowing him that well, I will just assume from now on, everything we have done together was simply friends meeting out for a quick meal and enjoying each others company and no more. I just hope I can hold these thoughts the next time he leans in and gets close.

Wrong baby wrong. In so many ways.


This site's main theme more so stems from "Grace Kelly" by Mika. There is absolutely no association with Grace Kelly the actress. I only wish I could have 1/2 the grace she possesses on screen. *sighs*