Saturday, June 28, 2008

Season of Moving

It seems like a lot of people are moving these days, and the fact that I soon too will be joining this moving activity next week. Hmmm lovely. With the shit load of work I have to do, I definitely don't want to do it...but it has to be done. *sigh*

I think over the course of these past two weeks, I have made a decision, but I'm not really to tell any/ everyone yet....or at least there is someone who deserves to know first. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

A taste of Pre-med

I like the MCAT prep class that I'm taking right is intense but fun at the same time when I get questions right. But there is one thing that bothers me in that class--the people that compose of the class. These people are the most rude, conceited and head up in their own asses people I have ever met. No one says "thank you" when something is passed to them, NO one smiles and almost EVERY time during the breaks, they are fighting for the attention of the instructor and then yapping away at some dumb questions that the instructor already addressed to the class 10 minutes before break. And don't even mention during the time when we go over the practice passages that we work on during class...."oh! oh! why is it that answer? didn't you just say this? didn't you just say that?" MY GAWD. Kill me now.

I try to be nice and polite in the class, but am always suprised and hurt by the responses the people by me give me. The attitude just makes me want to close myself and be aloof and rude at the same time. SIGH....I hope that I don't ever have to resort to that. But if i keep getting burned then I just might have to.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Current Thoughts

I woke up this morning quite disturbed. I dreamt about the mice that L. showed me yesterday and the cancerous lung samples that she collected. I've seen my fair share of numerous cancerous organs and samples, but for some odd reason, the lungs seems to be the only organ to affect me in this way. The little cysts that perforated and that were scattered across the smooth surface somehow reminded me of angry little blisters and just won't go away--and to think that my grandpa died of lung cancer just adds to that image a little bit more. ERGH!

Anyways, on a happier note--I finally found a way to start running again! I haven't been running in a while and was getting bitter because of my late evening classing along side with work wasn't allowing me to do my usual afternoon runs. After much agonizing and internal debate on my part I finally worked up the courage to ask L. for some time off and study time. I'm here sitting on a post run high and enjoying my day off today. Goodness I did not know how much I needed this little down time to myself and suffice to say...I'm enjoying it immensely. Although I am not quite sure how I feel about running in the morning yet--granted it was only my first run--but it feels different than running in the evening. Hopefully I will be inspired enough to be able to keep this up.

Monday, June 23, 2008


I think last week's stress and over working myself is finally catching up to me. I feel like I have been constantly running and has yet to have a chance to stop and take a break after multiple mile runs. Studying and pulling all nighters for finals, and then a continuous week of mcat classes and work right after my lacks of bouts of sleep definitely does not help in the take care of your body department.

Don't get me wrong, I am beyond grateful to be where I am currently in life right now, but I'm just so damn tired to even enjoy the small accomplishments that I have achieved for myself. Weeks and weeks pushing myself to stay strong and be okay is finally taking a toll on me. Nearing complete burn out.

I think I need a couple days of rest, but I did not give myself any of this, and at the same time will not be able to. Sigh. I definitely need to take my life by the horns, and just tough these two months out. And hopefully by the end of August I would be able taste the sweet victory and satisfaction of achieving something that I will be able to call completely my own.

For now, I think I need to talk to L. and hopefully figure out a good schedule that would work for the both of us. One that would allow me to study enough hours, get work done, earn a little bit of money, and study some more. Well rather than mulling over this, I think I should probably go to bed and hope that morning will bring me a better perspective.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Class of 2008

So today is the day of commencement ceremonies for Class 2008. Strangely I don't feel much or like I have graduated. The weather outside is perfect now that is cooling down a bit. I guess one can't wish for a better day to graduate on I guess.

Congratulations to the class of 2008. May all our wishes come true and that we will accomplish what we set out for in life.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Summer far

I can't believe so far my summer has been way more busier than I have ever been during the school year. Go to work in the mornings, go to class in the afternoon and come home at 8:30pm every night. I am so exhausted by the end of the day I don't even think straight anymore.

For example, after work today I went to go buy water, and saw.. hmmm, Dasani water...OMG 12 bottles for 3 dollars? I am so getting this. So I hauled the box of water into my cart, paid and went home. When I opened the box at home to take out the water, I realized that these water bottles were 12oz size =_= Barely enough for two sips of waters. Sad thing was that when I was still at the store, I read the 12oz, and was like, oh cool, and didn't even think again about it. I'm such a genius...sometimes I don't even know what to do with myself.

On another note....I know I've said before how grateful I am to be working in the lab that currently work in...but recent events has never humbled me more in the extent that my co-workers are willing to do for me. Who can you name that has 3 post docs, 1 lab manager that specializes in resume writing, and 2 PhD grad students helping someone trim and perfect a resume? At the same time be introduced to cutting edge awesome scientists for job opportunities? They just keep filling my heart with tons and tons of warm ticklely much to the point that I don't know how I can ever repay their kindness and generosity. The trust and affection I have from them, humbles me and scares me at the same time. I hope I have the potential and ability to live up and exceed their expectations--the last thing I want to do is to disappoint them. I still cannot believe the kind of support system I have--I am still stunned. Hopefully I will be able to make them proud and that I will never forget the kindness they have showed me. And that one day I will be able to give someone who needs help the kind of help that I have received in this past week.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Count Down

6 Hour count down till Final.

Hmmmmmmmmm......For some odd reason the "HMFG OH SHIT SHIT SHIT" light has yet to click on in my brain for this final. I should really be panicking. However I'm calm as a person can be. What is this feeling I'm feeling? Hopefully I won't be doing the clicky light thing tomorrow when I get my final.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Scrambled Eggs

1 final down. 6 lectures and 1 visual art project to go. My brain feels like a pan of scrambled eggs. Funny that.

However fried of the current state of my brain, I'm actually looking forward to this weekend: Brad Paisley's concert, M.'s BBQ graduation party, and Lunch with future roommate M2. And maybe...if I have the time and Alanis M.'s new CD and spend some time listening to it.

Currently listening to:
"Not as We" - Alanis Morrissette
"The Quest" - Bryn Christopher
"Better in Time" - Leona Lewis

Saturday, June 7, 2008


Dammit, I need some motivation for me to actually allow me to plow through 2 more chapters of oh so fun filled of Molecular biology, and 6 lectures of actual lecture notes. And then there is the dreaded 8 lectures of inherited Molecular Biology of Human Disease. Sometimes I wonder if choosing a biology degree was actually a mistake. Should of taken International communications instead. Bah! And the fun thing is that I hear it only gets worse from here on. LOVELY.

I swear, sometimes I really feel like a sadist towards myself for choosing this path to travel on.

Thursday, June 5, 2008


YAY! I have a new roommate! And so far from what I've seen, she is an awesome possum girl <3

It feels right and I hope that this is the beginning of a good relationship to come.

I love my community.

Now if the darn finals would be over soon...either that or I have more time to study. Poohie

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


I need to have more patience for things in life.

A couple of things to remember while waiting:

Perfer et obdura; dolor hic tibi proderit olim
"Every relationship that doesn't work out takes you one step closer to the one that will."
"If you're going through hell, keep going."-Winston Churchill

I can do this!!!!! Go Allie! GO! GOOO!


This site's main theme more so stems from "Grace Kelly" by Mika. There is absolutely no association with Grace Kelly the actress. I only wish I could have 1/2 the grace she possesses on screen. *sighs*