Perfect Evening

At the risk of jinxing this perfect evening, I will announce to the world that I finally have a moment of rest and peace. Though my moving is not completely done, I am glad to say that I finished most of the move (with the assistance of the parental units) and now I am comfortably sitting at my NEW desk (former dinning table) in my NEW room contemplating how life is treating me recently.

For dinner, I had guava juice with 1 slice of CPK pizza with a bit of chicken and was able to sit down to watch TV--this my friends, was simply heaven. To be able to eat at a time that is regular, to not have to think on a schedule term and what other duties I have to do afterwards was awesome.

It is quite a weird feeling. I have been constantly stressed to the limit recently and yet at this moment of peace and relaxation, I can only feel how grateful I am to be here and be able to do the things I am doing. My battle uphill is far from over...in fact it has only started. But for now, I will be grateful for this rest and make the best of it for soon I, like Sisyphus will have to face reality again and continue our job.

I guess faced with the daily stress that I have, it is really the simple pleasures that make my day.

Summer Life....so far

I can't believe so far my summer has been way more busier than I have ever been during the school year. Go to work in the mornings, go to class in the afternoon and come home at 8:30pm every night. I am so exhausted by the end of the day I don't even think straight anymore.

For example, after work today I went to go buy water, and saw.. hmmm, Dasani water...OMG 12 bottles for 3 dollars? I am so getting this. So I hauled the box of water into my cart, paid and went home. When I opened the box at home to take out the water, I realized that these water bottles were 12oz size =_= Barely enough for two sips of waters. Sad thing was that when I was still at the store, I read the 12oz, and was like, oh cool, and didn't even think again about it. I'm such a genius...sometimes I don't even know what to do with myself.

On another note....I know I've said before how grateful I am to be working in the lab that currently work in...but recent events has never humbled me more in the extent that my co-workers are willing to do for me. Who can you name that has 3 post docs, 1 lab manager that specializes in resume writing, and 2 PhD grad students helping someone trim and perfect a resume? At the same time be introduced to cutting edge awesome scientists for job opportunities? They just keep filling my heart with tons and tons of warm ticklely feelings...so much to the point that I don't know how I can ever repay their kindness and generosity. The trust and affection I have from them, humbles me and scares me at the same time. I hope I have the potential and ability to live up and exceed their expectations--the last thing I want to do is to disappoint them. I still cannot believe the kind of support system I have--I am still stunned. Hopefully I will be able to make them proud and that I will never forget the kindness they have showed me. And that one day I will be able to give someone who needs help the kind of help that I have received in this past week.

Grateful

Recent events have placed me in a pensive mood. I don't know where to start without being corny and all, therefore I'll just say it--I am very grateful and humbled by the people that are by my side and who like me as I am.

Not to sound mushy or anything, but I think my mentor and coworkers dote on me. Well, not the type of "oh darling, you are so cute...here have a cookie" type of doting. But the type where they joke around with me, teach me, mess with my head because they like me....and so much more...but most importantly I think they firmly think that I have the potential to reach my dreams--be a doctor.

At times I feel so unworthy to be the object of in which they "dote" and "believe" in--but in retrospect, they have to see something in me that I don't see in myself for them make such conclusion too right? Them, doting on me, liking me, making me feel part of something, warms my heart so much that sometimes brims my eyes with tears.

I just hope I won't let them nor myself down.

As Chinese New Year approaches, I think I have made some New Year resolutions. They are as follows:

1) Believe in myself and have confidence
2) Study hard and Party hard
3) Never forget lessons learned
4) Learn how to run
5) Learn how to Salsa whilst dancing with a cute boy, or dance with a cute boy afterward mastering Salsa...either one works :P
6) Pass the MCATs with a decent score
7) Save more money
8) Feel less guilt

#4 and #8 are thanks to Dr.Mama, whose blog has helped me in parts that I didn't even knew I needed help in. And if you are reading this Dr.Mama for any reason, I just would like to say, I'm happy that I'm one of your maggots, and that I'm happy for making you happy! :)