Wednesday, April 30, 2008


It is so weird... during midterms and final times, it always seems like I have a pit-less stomach! Either that or an endless appetite.

All I do is eat eat eat eat and eat some more. Stress eating you ask? Maybe...but other times when I get stressed I don't eat at all or I don't have the appetite. How odd. And the weird thing is that I start craving all sorts of food--man its like I'm hormonal or something. Haha.

My current craving is BEER. *tears* I don't even drink that often! Aiii...the human body. A mystery indeed.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Speak to me~

Has anyone had the feeling that sometimes this horoscopes just speak to you and make you feel like they are exactly tailored to what is happening in their life? I sometimes think so? More often than not I guess I should say. I am learning so much about myself, what I need, what I want, what I don't want to tolerate and what I would like to have these days it is sometimes a little bit overwhelming. At the same time I am not suppose to forget about myself in the physical academic world. The more frustrated I get, the more I rely on my supposed cool logic to analyze and figure things out. But I somehow feel that my feelings and intuitions are being ignored and I guess thats why I feel frustrated at the fact that I don't know how to make things work. Blah! hopefully things will work out.

I guess in the end, the only thing I will be able to do is to let go and go with the flow. WAHHHH I want to go running!!! But guess what? I'm now on doctor's orders not to run for 3 days straight. Lovely, why can't I ever do things that I would like to do during the times I can't? Wah leh. >_< Hoping for Wednesday now.

Oh a side question for whoever has the time to answer this question. Does a having a rebound relationship simply mean one only wants to sleep with that person? And that there can only be a physical relationship? My friend and I got into a debate the other day about this topic. I disagreed while he was trying to convince me to agree. What do you guys think?

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Ah Yes, Home

So A. and I decided to come back to the bubble in the O.C. for this weekend. After three weeks away from home, we realized.......DANG bubble is still a bubble.

Evidence of bubble:
-Constant construction of major streets; for no apparent reason either since streets in the bubble are usually quite well maintained.
-A person got pulled over, and there were 3 police cars right behind it. And later today we saw another person get pulled over by 2 police cars.
-No cars if any on the street past 10:00pm

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Spoke too soon

So I spoke too soon. :( And on a perfectly good Thursday afternoon, I'm here at home working on homework because he has work.

I should have known that it was too good to be true that he wanted to spend time with me last night AND today. *le sigh* oh wellz.

Humm......Maybe if i finish early I can go to the beach and maybe work on my tan for a hour or so.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

This is the way life should be

Went kayaking in this awesome weather yesterday. Totally want to go again today, but alas duty of homework calls. . Might I add that I'm also working on my tan? Muahaha, maybe this year will be the year I get rid of that weird swim suit tan I have on my back.


So today was seriously a lazy hazy day for me. The temperature outside was in its mid 80s and so far I have only accomplished not even 1/2 of my chaos draft that is due tomorrow and 2 separate loads of laundry. I also had a few good talks with friends and sister. It is so easy to be overwhelmed with all the kindness and warmth of friendship. *sigh* Why haven't I realized this sooner? Well better now than never no?

oOo! And I took a nap today! I haven't taken naps in like forever! I guess I was seriously worn out from yesterday's 4 hours of kayaking and cooking. It was awesome fun and I really enjoyed my company; too bad life can't be like that all the time. But then again, it does make the opportunities that much more special.

Oh! another awesome report to report. I'm going to Brad Paisley's concert when he comes to San Diego! *giggles like a mindless school girl* I am beyond stoked and excited! I just cannot wait till it happens! Chuck Wicks, and Jewel will also be performing!

The only down-ish thing for me right now is that my sprained ankle/foot thing has yet to heal completely, and I am afraid to run on it. It is starting to make me anxious though, not being able to go running and all that. Hopefully my ankle will heal soon and I can get back on road. :I

Monday, April 7, 2008

Contemplation on date

"I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn and we are led to those who help us most to grow, if we let them and we help them in return" ~Anonymous

I found this quote while looking back and digging into some of my archives from my previous blog. I don't remember how I felt when I copied down this quote and pasted it in my post. However, now reading means a whole new meaning for me. I love the fact that when I look back on my previous self and compare it to me today, I am still able to to see bits and pieces of myself--for staying the same; I think I'm glad to a certain extent.

Anyways, on this so called date person I had gone on a couple dates with stopped contacting me since our last (3rd date). He says that he thinks I'm infatuated by him, but I was too lazy to correct I guess this is why he isn't calling. Maybe he is afraid that I will cling on to him like an octopus and be like one of those girls. Hum...I wonder if I give off that vibe. It is all very interesting. So I guess that is that. Whilst I would not be honest if I said I didn't care at all (it sort of bothers me that people can be so much for honesty), at the same time I don't think I felt much other than a little bit of possible attraction and flattery at the comments that he gives me....oh fine... and the kisses were nice too. But at the end of the day, he barely knows me so how would I be obsessed with a guy I hardly know and vice versa.

Again. VERY interesting. Aii, I just hope I will find out the reason; I don't need the relationship to work...but truthfully, it bothers the crap out of me of not knowing.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Contemplation in wee hours of the morning

Life's twist and turns will never turn out how one would like to. Especially in the area of love, or potential love relationships. Giving oneself out to another not knowing what the other person would do with your fragile heart is indeed a scary thing. I think I need to learn not to always place my heart on a platter and offer it out. But at the same time, shouldn't the thing that they say that one should always give it all and bet on that moment of the possibility that the other person will reciprocate be considered as another option too? I think my whole life will be in a process of constant learning and bruising of trying to find the right person and share my life with that particular right person.

Thursday, April 3, 2008


Being an Asian daughter in an Asian family for twenty two years, one would think that I would have learned by now that parental appraisal is far and rare and should not be expected in any situation.

Yesterday, I was at work, and the lab manager came up to me and offered me a prospective job after I graduate to continue to work in the lab as a full time employee. Though the offer was prospective and still in the works (it had to be approved by the big boss); but the fact that she came up to me and offered me a job just because she approved of my work--that feeling itself was big affirmation to myself and the effort that I have put forth into my work. I didn't have to ask for a job! Some one gave me one....sort of like what Dr. Michelle Au said in her blog "okay...give me job. Pay me too! That is very nice." Awesome possum to the extreme! Well I thought so until I called my mother to tell her the good news.

"mom! I got a job!"

"What? Why would you want that? Does that mean you aren't going to med school anymore? You probably should study harder and not take that."


"I don't like it."

"Okay. I'll talk to you later."

click--phone line goes dead

"......>cries a little inside<......"

And later last night...we didn't talk at all. I talked to my dad, but he didn't mention anything about my job offer, I am assuming my mother hasn't told him yet. Not exactly looking forward to that conversation with him either.

Sigh. I guess for now I will just pat myself on the back, and dive back into work.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

The Other Boleyn Girl

Surprisingly, this movie was pretty good. The whole movie was basically a train wreck ready to happen, however one couldn't help but secretly hope that somehow it would work out--I guess that just might be the romantic in me talking. All in all, Henry VIII was just a big ass jerk and he would of been a lot better if he kept his lower half to himself; then again...we wouldn't have Elizabeth, and he wouldn't die such a painful it eventually worked out. Funny how life works out the little kinks.


This site's main theme more so stems from "Grace Kelly" by Mika. There is absolutely no association with Grace Kelly the actress. I only wish I could have 1/2 the grace she possesses on screen. *sighs*